black shirt..bad day..stupid cab in penang!

this year black shirt really bring me bad luck..
1st day i reported to penang for posting then admitted to hospital..
stupid...
some more parents are not around..admitted by ambulance in midnight 1.38am...
i ate the famous curry prawn on the way to penang from ipoh with my parents..
before this i ate prawn also nothing..dont have any allergic..
that night when my parents dropped in the condo then i started to have stomachache ..
following minutes i feel like my throat was stucked like chocking but actually it was not!!
i also feel my whole body very itchy and it turn damn red!!like tomato!!scary..
i scratch like monkey..and finally my hands and face 'bengkak'..
i phoned up my mum and she asked to go to the hospital quickly..it might be allergic she said..
after contacting the stupid teksi at penang that telling me that they had went back home at that time and refused to send me to hospital in this emergency case!!stupid teksi!!
finally i get the ambulance to send me there..
1st time in my life i sat the ambulance and sent to the A&E of the hospital..
1st time admitted..scary day for me..
the injection were damn pain...



will be updated soon due to short of time....

outpourings...

it takes strength to fit in,
it takes courage to stand out..

it takes strength to hide your own pains,
it takes courage to show them..

it takes strength to stand alone,
it takes courage to lean on another..

it takes strength to survive,
it takes courage to live..

life isn't easy..everyone is standing on their own points..

to the world you might be the one person,
but to the one person you might be the world..

the feeling is just like i know whats happening but i can do nothing on it to help...
helpless....
if one day some one ask u that hows your life recently?....
usually people will answer : ya!!i am fine and so far so good...
now..this answer seems to be strange to speak out...
suddenly i discovered that as a human,we cannot control our mind on what we are thinking or worrying....we cant control.....
finally,i get the truth in a late night when i was lying there and couldn't sleep...
having a night that u cant sleep is terrible......all kinds of things will be wondering in ur mind...

looking forward for the rainbow after the stormy day...

i found my feelings..

sometimes..its really sad when i am trying to face it..
sometimes..its better to sleep myself and avoid of thinking those stupid things..
sometimes..have a kind of feelings tat i just like a passer by..
sometimes..keep asking myself why..why..why..
sometimes..i really taught to give up..but i cant..

sadly..i have get through it for several years and i dont want to give up this friendship..
did anyone care of my feelings..
i can be strong in front of u all..
i can smile and laugh as "happily" as i can..
but it doesnt mean tat i am happy..

i was trying to pretend myself to be fine to be ok...
i avoiding to on9..
no 1 will knows why..
no one...

today finally i online to look and read on something..
we have been gone through many problems,joys,sad...anything together..
i really appreciate it...really..
i am always glad that i have this memory....
but today only i accept it..because its the third time i have seen it..
i know no matter how i avoid it will be the same too..
i am trying to accept but it really heart breaks.....

i lost my tears......

really sad when i read that and only i found that i am so common in it..
i skate this feelings..i hate...
it disturbs my routine..
this is y i seldom online..i hate the feelings..
i cant sleep..
when i think about it,i lost....
i am lost..

is it worth?..i dunno..
i always think that they will understand in 1 day..
but till this moment i am just a normal n common like a stranger..
thats wat i feel...

now i know why our human brain is so complicated..
its because GOD wants human to think..
to think and think and think...

sometimes..i hope i think too much.......
today..i found my feeelings....
~appreciate~

Making Friends

if nobody smiled and nobody cheered
and nobody helped us along;

if every man looked after for himself
and good things all went to the strong;

if nobody cared just a little for you,
and nobody thought about me
and we all stood alone in the battle of life,
what a deary old world this would be....

life is sweet because of the friends we've made.

all things in common we share,
we want to live on,not because of ourselves,
but because of the people we cared.

it's giving and doing for somebody else-
on that all life's splendour depends;

and the joy of the world when you sum it all up,
in formed in the MAKING OF FRIENDS.

-appreciating-

a smile..

Let others cheer the winning man,
There's one i hold worthwhile;
This he,who does the best he can,
Then loses with a smole.
Beaten he is,but not to stay
Down with the rank and file,
That man will win some other day,
who loses with a smile.

-Outpourings of the heart-

finally...

finally..
i had finish the long,boring 5 hours listening to the 'undang' lesson..
finally..
i spent the 5 hours starting with my fully concentration..

after an hour...

i started to 'fishin'..with my head keep on dropping because of the 'attraction' by the earth!!:D
sitting there without someone that i know..without any communication with others..
i merely drop to the floor..kakakakaka!!!jokin~

finally..i finished!

the next week,i went to sit the test early in the morning with my sleeping mind..
when its finally my turn to go in the room to sit for the test,suddenly i panic~~
i realised that i was just started to look through the book last night,and i was almost forget what i read last night...

but,fortunately..i pass the test..

my stars!!

recently...i found a great voice at hong kong!!
she is..........................KAY TSE!!!!!!!!
i like her voice vvvvvvvv much!!i cant wait to buy her album and waht i found inside were all high quality songs!!!
she was a new singer and also already a mum to a baby!!but she still look younger and have a nice voice!!i dont know how to describe on her voice but i can siad her albun "BINARY" was damn nice!!i like all the songs inside and hope she will have a concert in malaysia!!haha...
she gets many prizes this year at those ceremony!!she is the top singer now at hong kong!!
KAY!!

another was S.H.E!!today i just finish watchin their concert d dvd from oh..and i found it nice also!!1 thing i want to said is they sing nice and even able to dance nice!!sexy girls~:D
i found out that hebe was very passive during the concert,she talk less and something look noob..haha!!selina was so pretty in different cloths and her solo dance was WOW!!hee..

so,come on everybody!lets listen to nice music--KAY & S.H.E!!

normal day~~bored life!~

today was tuesday......
the second day my little brother went to school..
actually he is not little anymore,coz this year 2009 he is schooling at the secondary scholl!!
hahaha..time past so fast just like a blinking of eyes..suddenly so fast my youngest brother had grown up..and same to my parents...
mum and dad had look older day by day.........

sad......

but time has to go on..what i can do is to study hard so that they dont need to worried about me!!but actually i know myself well..am i a clever student??i am sure i know the answer well...i am not...compare to my elder brother even now my youngest brother....they are both cleverer than me..they do not need to study till late in night but they are able to pass their results with flying colors also...i know i have to work double triple hard than them..
even in front my friends..sometimes they talked about future study,i would had a hard feeling..i know i am the worst among them..i dunno what road i can choose but i think will be a road that not spending too much of my parent's money..i think it would be form 6??i am not sure yet..i dont have the privilege or chance to choose maybe......................

back to "little bro"---TOMMY

actually he looks smart when he wore the secondary uniform!!but a bit too thin...he got 5 A s in his UPSR last year but he was not very satisfied with that...he had appeal to the education department...now still waiting.....hahaha!!he was so excited the first day to school and same to the second day..he wanted to become a librarian again..really boring after he had become that since standard 3!!stupid bro~~hahaha!!i can talk his bad things over here coz i know he wont read my blog coz his english is a bit weak..hahahaha!!happy,i found a way to release my stress on him....:D
jokin~
lastly just wish the stupid bro can get to become a librarian as what he wanted to be..
all the best to him..

free live~

haha..long time never write for my blog d..typing in chinese really hard for me so i had chosen a easier way..this few days i were just staying at home or either following my mum to her shop..doing nothin there..

bored....

sometimes just helping her to do the cleaning work..haha!!hate~~but i have no choice to reject coz i were toally free all the day long!!:D

i had just finish my listening lesson of the "undang" on the last sunday and that day was really suffering!!sitting there for 5 hours!!fishing~~
finally i finished that and now just waiting for the test on wednesday..

haiz,2day oh asked me whether want to go kl with her and fong annot..i wan but my parents dont allow..sad~~they were worried coz they said we just 3 "pretty girls only"..dangerous wer..
oh,fong!you 2 enjoy there ler..rmb to becareful!!
wish oh can get her clothes there..:D

i was thinking to get a job for my holiday but dont know wat job..haha..actually a bit lazy to work but taught to have a little bit more pocket money..what a thinking..still seeking for a suitable one..HELP~~~