i found my feelings..

sometimes..its really sad when i am trying to face it..
sometimes..its better to sleep myself and avoid of thinking those stupid things..
sometimes..have a kind of feelings tat i just like a passer by..
sometimes..keep asking myself why..why..why..
sometimes..i really taught to give up..but i cant..

sadly..i have get through it for several years and i dont want to give up this friendship..
did anyone care of my feelings..
i can be strong in front of u all..
i can smile and laugh as "happily" as i can..
but it doesnt mean tat i am happy..

i was trying to pretend myself to be fine to be ok...
i avoiding to on9..
no 1 will knows why..
no one...

today finally i online to look and read on something..
we have been gone through many problems,joys,sad...anything together..
i really appreciate it...really..
i am always glad that i have this memory....
but today only i accept it..because its the third time i have seen it..
i know no matter how i avoid it will be the same too..
i am trying to accept but it really heart breaks.....

i lost my tears......

really sad when i read that and only i found that i am so common in it..
i skate this feelings..i hate...
it disturbs my routine..
this is y i seldom online..i hate the feelings..
i cant sleep..
when i think about it,i lost....
i am lost..

is it worth?..i dunno..
i always think that they will understand in 1 day..
but till this moment i am just a normal n common like a stranger..
thats wat i feel...

now i know why our human brain is so complicated..
its because GOD wants human to think..
to think and think and think...

sometimes..i hope i think too much.......
today..i found my feeelings....
~appreciate~