Sunday, March 22, 2009

i found my feelings..

sometimes..its really sad when i am trying to face it..
sometimes..its better to sleep myself and avoid of thinking those stupid things..
sometimes..have a kind of feelings tat i just like a passer by..
sometimes..keep asking myself why..why..why..
sometimes..i really taught to give up..but i cant..

sadly..i have get through it for several years and i dont want to give up this friendship..
did anyone care of my feelings..
i can be strong in front of u all..
i can smile and laugh as "happily" as i can..
but it doesnt mean tat i am happy..

i was trying to pretend myself to be fine to be ok...
i avoiding to on9..
no 1 will knows why..
no one...

today finally i online to look and read on something..
we have been gone through many problems,joys,sad...anything together..
i really appreciate it...really..
i am always glad that i have this memory....
but today only i accept it..because its the third time i have seen it..
i know no matter how i avoid it will be the same too..
i am trying to accept but it really heart breaks.....

i lost my tears......

really sad when i read that and only i found that i am so common in it..
i skate this feelings..i hate...
it disturbs my routine..
this is y i seldom online..i hate the feelings..
i cant sleep..
when i think about it,i lost....
i am lost..

is it worth?..i dunno..
i always think that they will understand in 1 day..
but till this moment i am just a normal n common like a stranger..
thats wat i feel...

now i know why our human brain is so complicated..
its because GOD wants human to think..
to think and think and think...

sometimes..i hope i think too much.......
today..i found my feeelings....
~appreciate~

5 comments:

  1. cheer up teh, we're always there for you if u wanna share out ur feelings, dont just keep it in your heart,if u feel like wanna cry,cry on our shoulders,if u wanna scold,just scold on us..we're ready for u! muax~

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  2. hey ex-kbp partner &Grp 5 member...cheer up!=)glad u've found ur feelings..take it easy and feel free to share ur prob with us,kay?muaxie...

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  3. monnie..
    thx for ur support....
    mb sometimes i am just too sensitive..but i really dunno..
    anyway really thx ya!!
    one day i will be back....{teh's spirit}
    take care!muaxie~

    jin..
    thx muchie..
    ya,glad that i found my feelings and i am ready to take it..but i need some times..
    thx..so,hows ur life over there?
    take care all the time ya..
    miss u..

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  4. hi...first come...
    so good ...

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  5. wa...long time didnt upload ure blog di leh~~~~
    dunno wuts wrong but i noe u can overcome it~
    gambateh~~

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